You're where the Wild Things are...

An in-character blog set in the universe of EVE Online. These are the private diary entries of Lady Ekaterina Mariya deSilvestris, a minor Amarrian Noble and Capsuleer. Other existing characters within EVE will be referred to throughout, though any opinions and views expressed are those of this character. These entries may touch on or directly address mature themes such as violence, sexuality, race and ethnicity, and mental health. As noted, any views are those of the character.

Before we begin, I feel it important to say a few words on the subject of mental health. Ekaterina, or Ekat as many call her, is something of a troubled soul. This aspect of her character is a personal choice I have made, for very personal reasons. Although EVE is a game in which the players can immerse themselves to a greater or lesser degree as they wish, mental health is a very real issue for many people. Those two simple words cover a myriad different issues and concerns that affect people directly or indirectly every day all, over the world.

If you find yourself affected by any issues touched upon in these posts, or if you face your own troubles, please know that there are people out there you can turn to; doctors, friends, family - there is ALWAYS someone. If you are an EVE player, then Broadcast 4 Reps chat is available, staffed by wonderfully kind and good-hearted volunteers. If you know of someone who has mental health issues, then please just let them know you are there. It doesn't have to be anything big, just a smile, a cup of tea, a quick phone call about last night's game - just a little thing to show they aren't forgotten.

You Never Fly Alone.
03-04-YC121

I did not sleep well last night, despite being in Constantin's arms.  I dreamt of my Time Away, of the things the Angels did to me.  I suspect that the questions of Constantin's family over my Souvenirs brought up darker thoughts I had foolishly thought subdued and buried.  I should know I cannot truly escape, but I do not blame them.  They have a right to know my past if I am to be in Constantin's life, if only for a short time, but now that they know, I must brace myself lest they forbid out relationship.

I would not blame them, there must be a million young women on this planet alone better suited to be on his arm, and in his bed, than I.  I shall make the most of my time with him, of my time in love, whilst I can.

I could not quite shake the Darkness, but exercise has always helped.  Whilst Constantin attended to various duties around the Basilica, I took the time to go through my routine.  It has made me feel much better, and now I feel I can enjoy a few moments alone before meeting Constantin again.

I have not yet heard from Lady Newelle regarding my proposal in relation to Liana.  I hope Her Ladyship sees the sense in it.  It appears Liana's good news is becoming common knowledge now - I did not believe it would be quiet for long - and the quicker we move the better.  Liana is very sweet, but I fear easily taken advantage of, and were the enemies within to place themselves in such a position to gain influence over her and use the resources now at her disposal for their own nefarious schemes, the dangers facing the Empire would only increase.  Better there is someone trustworthy at Liana's side, to keep her safe and free from malign influence.  There will also be much to do, so time, I feel, is of the essence.  I pray a reply comes soon, and I pray it is in agreement.
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