You're where the Wild Things are...

An in-character blog set in the universe of EVE Online. These are the private diary entries of Lady Ekaterina Mariya deSilvestris, a minor Amarrian Noble and Capsuleer. Other existing characters within EVE will be referred to throughout, though any opinions and views expressed are those of this character. These entries may touch on or directly address mature themes such as violence, sexuality, race and ethnicity, and mental health. As noted, any views are those of the character.

Before we begin, I feel it important to say a few words on the subject of mental health. Ekaterina, or Ekat as many call her, is something of a troubled soul. This aspect of her character is a personal choice I have made, for very personal reasons. Although EVE is a game in which the players can immerse themselves to a greater or lesser degree as they wish, mental health is a very real issue for many people. Those two simple words cover a myriad different issues and concerns that affect people directly or indirectly every day all, over the world.

If you find yourself affected by any issues touched upon in these posts, or if you face your own troubles, please know that there are people out there you can turn to; doctors, friends, family - there is ALWAYS someone. If you are an EVE player, then Broadcast 4 Reps chat is available, staffed by wonderfully kind and good-hearted volunteers. If you know of someone who has mental health issues, then please just let them know you are there. It doesn't have to be anything big, just a smile, a cup of tea, a quick phone call about last night's game - just a little thing to show they aren't forgotten.

You Never Fly Alone.
04-07-YC122

I did not particularly wish to mark my birthday today, but after some thought I realised that to do so would give Mama something positive to focus upon after missing Sasha's.  It was a subdued affair, of course, with my brother still not home - and Papa refused to speak at all of Alexandr's whereabouts or mission - but nonetheless it was pleasant and joyful.  Thankfully Felix is always able to bring light and joy to a situation, so it was today.  His latest ventures sound extremely interesting and as ever he has thrown himself into the study of a subject with absolute conviction and devotion.  He is already putting operations into place for the planetary holdings we were given by Lord Sarum.  I have no doubt we shall soon see most positive returns.

Now that we have secured the systems around Floseswin, I find my duties changing again; or rather, I find myself having to occupy myself with matters of a different nature.  I have, for the most part, returned primarily to supporting Imperial Navy operations.  Orda Sand almost always has some task or other he requires my services for, and I am more than happy to oblige, if only to ensure that this family's historical links to the Navy are maintained.  I cannot help but feel, however, that there is something more important and effective I could be doing.  Indeed, should be doing.  I hope that inspiration shall be granted me soon.  I think that apart from my regular prayers of thanks and humble entreaties for my brother's safety, I shall ask God and The Eternal Empress for their Divine Guidance.  Perhaps they shall find me worthy.
01-07-YC122

After our God-given Victory in Floseswin, our forces have made significant progress in the surrounding systems.  Of course, there is still much left to do, especially as we also face those inhuman invaders, the Triglavians,. but it would appear that Tribal opposition has collapsed.  As a result we are being cycled out for shore-leave, and I was given my pass yesterday.

I immediately came to see Lilya!  Oh, how I have missed her.  She has made some changes whilst I have been away, including a new starbase orbiting Nafrivik.  I shall remain with her for the duration of my leave, although I should also take the opportunity to visit home.

Dear sweet Lilya.  They say absence makes the heart grow fonder, and I can indeed believe it.  I did not tell her I was coming, of course, as I thought she would prefer the surprise, and I was quite correct.  I do not think I have ever seen anyone so excited, and we must have held one another in the shuttle bay for an hour before she began to show me around the new station.  It is a most beautiful facility, very tasteful in its décor and also fully practical and functional.  Not only is Lilya beautiful, but she is one of the most intelligent people I know!  I think I should enjoy visiting there when I am able.

Later, Lilya wanted to talk of our future, of marriage and children.  She is so innocent in many ways that it is quite amusing, in a sweet way, to hear her talk of children.  She becomes quite rosy in the cheeks with modesty when the subject of the mechanics of conception are mentioned.  There are so many different methods with modern medicine that we are quite spoilt for choice.  I wonder what our children would look like.  I am sure they shall be the most delightful, cherubic darlings ever to bless New Eden.  Time shall tell.  Of course, we must be married first!

It appears I have also inadvertently discovered the reason for Constantin's behaviour at the Awards Ceremony.  I knew there was something physically the matter, and I also knew he was keeping something important from me.  There are reports in the tabloid press about some sort of feud involving his family.  I am sure it is all exaggerated for the sake of sensationalist so-called news - alas if only every outlet could be as reliable as our ACN - but there is always a kernel of truth in these things, and they mention attacks and all sorts of unpleasant things that read more like some sort of gang-war from the lower levels of a station than behaviour becoming of a Noble Family.  I do so hope he has not found himself in something deadly.  Surely Ardishpur should put a stop to it.

Perhaps Ishta was right and my family ought to consider making available its services in the conflicts that occur between Holders.