You're where the Wild Things are...

An in-character blog set in the universe of EVE Online. These are the private diary entries of Lady Ekaterina Mariya deSilvestris, a minor Amarrian Noble and Capsuleer. Other existing characters within EVE will be referred to throughout, though any opinions and views expressed are those of this character. These entries may touch on or directly address mature themes such as violence, sexuality, race and ethnicity, and mental health. As noted, any views are those of the character.

Before we begin, I feel it important to say a few words on the subject of mental health. Ekaterina, or Ekat as many call her, is something of a troubled soul. This aspect of her character is a personal choice I have made, for very personal reasons. Although EVE is a game in which the players can immerse themselves to a greater or lesser degree as they wish, mental health is a very real issue for many people. Those two simple words cover a myriad different issues and concerns that affect people directly or indirectly every day all, over the world.

If you find yourself affected by any issues touched upon in these posts, or if you face your own troubles, please know that there are people out there you can turn to; doctors, friends, family - there is ALWAYS someone. If you are an EVE player, then Broadcast 4 Reps chat is available, staffed by wonderfully kind and good-hearted volunteers. If you know of someone who has mental health issues, then please just let them know you are there. It doesn't have to be anything big, just a smile, a cup of tea, a quick phone call about last night's game - just a little thing to show they aren't forgotten.

You Never Fly Alone.

 29-04-YC123


Now the Gallente attack us, again using a cynosaural field to hit a planet in a high-security system.  Will our supposed allies in the State turn on us next, I wonder?  Our enemies are ranged against us, but we will not cower, we shall not turn from this fight, any fight, and we shall take not a single step backward!  Let them all come, all of them. We shall be ready, and we shall strike them with the fury of God.

All the Royal Houses and their vassals have fully mobilised.  Our own Household forces are assembling as I write this, and very soon I shall be joining Papa to address them.  We shall all fight, of course; myself, Sasha, my dear Kolya. Even Papa will be doing his part with the Admirals and Generals.  Only Mama and Felix shall be left behind.  I pray they will not worry overmuch.

Whilst we cannot rest our efforts against the enemy within, at least inter-family rivalries shall be put aside.  The Kovals are mustering their forces too, and who knows, perhaps we shall all fight side-by-side in the Name of God, for Her Imperial Majesty, for Amarr, for our Motherland.

Edward was in Girani-Fa when the attack happened.  I have asked him why he was there, but he has sent no reply.  I should have known.  Just like everyone else he cannot be trusted.

I feel that Unclean Force, that Darkness coming upon me ever quicker, but this time I shall pray to God to grant me the strength to turn it outward, to turn the hate, the anger, the fury that comes with it upon our enemies.

God Feedeth The Ravens

Sumus Silvestre

 28-04-YC123

The Tribals attacked Tanoo II today with an Orbital Bombardment.  Three Dreadnaughts, along with some support ships.  Of course, they did not last very long against our defences.  Indeed, it took me so long to clone jump to Mehatoor and then travel to Tanoo that by the time I arrived it was mostly over.

I do not know what damage has been done, early reports, as always, are somewhat vague, though ACN is reporting damage as light.  I understand they used a cynosaural bridge to bypass the Ammatar border, but the real question is how shall we respond to this blatant act of war?

Oh, of course, there are voices already saying that we ought not to be too hasty in our judgement, that this was a lone act by some fringe radicals, but unless I am mistaken, at least some of the enemy were Brutor Vanguard, so either they act without any regard for the Republic's own government or that government was in full knowledge of the event.  Others, as might be expected, have yelled the age-old cry of false flag.  Personally, I would not be surprised if it is a double-bluff.  What better way to hide the obvious than in plain sight and have everyone look for a secret conspiracy that never existed.  How ironic that would be after everything in Nakri.

I have to focus my efforts on Nakri.  I feel that Taint, that Darkness rising again.  It is not simply the nausea that I get from clone jumping that make me feel so wretched.  It is long overdue, I suppose, but before I find myself again assailed by thoughts of doubt and despair, I must make sure everything is in place here at home.  Chief Sokolov will announce some arrests soon, and we can have a show trial or two.  Changing direction at such short notice was not easy, but Nauplius' involvement may actually make some things easier for us.

I feel unwell.  I think I shall have Karine fetch some Esfand from my usual contact here.  It should help me sleep, or at least grant me some distracting dreams.


 06-04-YC123


Slava Bogu!

The Operation on Floseswin IV was a success.  Through Prayer and Fire we have freed our brethren and sistren from the torture camps of the Tribals.  What a glorious sight it was to behold the mighty vessels of the Crusade in orbit above the planet.  With God's Grace and Mercy the opposition was minimal, and purely planetary.  The oh-so-very-brave capsuleers of the so-called Tribal Liberation Force and their baying curs did not even attempt to prevent our work.  No doubt they were safe in their holes where they can spit their meaningless curses and empty calls of "freedom".

Indeed, let them do so, for it works only in the favour of Operation Snegovschina, which may now move to the next stage.  Doubtless there are already questions being asked of how so many attacks could be carried out against defended Tribal sites by forces already present on the planet.  There will be recriminations, accusations, and retributions.  I positively plan on it; and whilst all this goes on, and more and more innocents are accused of collaboration with the hated slavers, more and more fall foul of vigilante justice, the would-be saviours of the people of Floseswin IV will sit there, safe and hidden, yet shouting loudly enough that all will see what their devotion to the "liberation" of their people is truly worth.

How busy I am kept.  Aside from that, Edward has asked me to persuade the Holders in Basan to allow a contingent from his group to operate against some mutual enemies there.  It is never a disadvantage to find opportunity to develop contacts and favours.  It is made easier, I suppose, by the fact that Edward's Nadire group has apparently decided not to renew its contract supporting the Federation's war effort.  I must admit a personal satisfaction at such a decision as well.  It will make it much easier for Edward to visit me in the Empire.  I hope he shall do so more often, and be less inclined to hurry back home afterwards.  A foolish indulgence, but I rather like keeping him as long as can.  Perhaps that is encouraging his developing feelings toward me, despite our unspoken agreement that this was just a fling, an idle love affair.  He has obviously picked up some of that well-known Gallente romanticism.

The only blot in this beautiful picture is, as one may expect, Nauplius' continued baffling attempts to besmirch my family.  What would he do were he to find out that aside from Sasha being quite open about his relationship with Ishta, I myself am engaged in a torrid affair with a profligate libertine known throughout New Eden as an insatiable rake, a turncoat-turned-playboy?  No doubt the word "fornicate" would frequently usher forth from his mouth!

The heretic fool's latest spark of genius is drones floating around our properties chanting his vacant-headed slogan.  Fortunately, our dear security services have been very quick at intercepting and neutralising them, though I believe more than one was the source, or perhaps I should say target, of youthful entertainment for some of the boys and girls in the locality.  I rather think we shall see some new sharpshooters amongst our younger recruits in a few years.  I suppose that is something to thank Nauplius for.

The drones do give me an idea.

 02-04-YC123

Operation Snegovschina is proceeding well.  I firmly believe that the results, whatever the outcome of the overall mission of which it forms just one small part, shall be more than worth both the effort and the wait.  How fortunate that Aldrith hit upon his daring plan, or else I might never have been able to put this into motion.  No doubt, of course, Ishta will return with certain reservations; she does seem to be developing quite the moral compass; but at least I can be confident Sasha and the rest of the 601st shall follow their orders without question.

I met with Lady Renaud, Abigail, last night.  I have not had opportunity to speak with her before, and how overdue it was!  Not only do we have much in common, but also our families share mutual interests.  The Renauds require, it appears, security personnel, whilst we, of course, need a reason to rebuild and strengthen Gagana that will satisfy any immediate curiosities or concerns of most observers.  Thanks to Nauplius' little escapade, I know there are mutters and whisperings of suspicion around the Court about our intentions in suddenly acquiring the remnants of a failed military contractor, as well as some doubts about why such a successful company did indeed suddenly fail.  I very much doubt they shall ever discover the truth, but there is never any harm in taking as many precautions as possible.

Besides, another friendly connection is, in and of itself, a benefit beyond measure.  Lady Renaud is clearly an intelligent and ambitious Holder, and if her companion Celeste is anything to go by, someone with a keen sense of judgement of others.  I rather think we can be of great support to one another.  Times are undoubtedly changing, the Empire is changing, even if certain people cannot see it.  I have every intention that my family take full advantage of these developing times, and I believe Lady Renaud has the same attitude.  Trusted allies will be of inestimable value in the very near future.

Speaking of allies, I must arrange a meeting with Security Chief Sokolov.  The people will be expecting an outcome of the investigation into Nauplius' disruption, and a trial needs to be arranged.  It has to run as smoothly as possible if it is to serve its proper purpose for us.  After all, justice must seen to be done.