You're where the Wild Things are...

An in-character blog set in the universe of EVE Online. These are the private diary entries of Lady Ekaterina Mariya deSilvestris, a minor Amarrian Noble and Capsuleer. Other existing characters within EVE will be referred to throughout, though any opinions and views expressed are those of this character. These entries may touch on or directly address mature themes such as violence, sexuality, race and ethnicity, and mental health. As noted, any views are those of the character.

Before we begin, I feel it important to say a few words on the subject of mental health. Ekaterina, or Ekat as many call her, is something of a troubled soul. This aspect of her character is a personal choice I have made, for very personal reasons. Although EVE is a game in which the players can immerse themselves to a greater or lesser degree as they wish, mental health is a very real issue for many people. Those two simple words cover a myriad different issues and concerns that affect people directly or indirectly every day all, over the world.

If you find yourself affected by any issues touched upon in these posts, or if you face your own troubles, please know that there are people out there you can turn to; doctors, friends, family - there is ALWAYS someone. If you are an EVE player, then Broadcast 4 Reps chat is available, staffed by wonderfully kind and good-hearted volunteers. If you know of someone who has mental health issues, then please just let them know you are there. It doesn't have to be anything big, just a smile, a cup of tea, a quick phone call about last night's game - just a little thing to show they aren't forgotten.

You Never Fly Alone.
16-08-YC121

I must confess, I was not expecting this turn of events when I answered Lilya's summons.  I had thought that there had been some development in the investigation, or that she had some news, perhaps of Constantin or someone else.  I of course had not forgotten her words to me before I left for Sarum Prime, about her feelings towards me, how could I?  Yet perhaps I thought Lilya herself would have put them from her mind.

Quite the opposite.  She had been thinking of them a lot, it seems, and had even thought I was angry or displeased with her, though nothing could be further from the truth.  I had always thought of Lilya as so quite, so reserved and shy.  I never thought she would be so determined to get what she wants, to obtain that which she has set her heart on.

What she wants, it transpires, really is me!  She was not unsuccessful.

Perhaps it shall complicate matters, but in all honesty, at this moment I do not care.  She is warm, kind, loyal, devoted - all the things I myself have ever wanted, and all that she wants is to be loved and cherised, as she deserves.  Tonight she made me feel both calm and excited at the same time, and wrapped in her arms after making love, I felt as though nothing else in New Eden mattered.  Nothing!  I know she speaks truthfully when she tells me she loves me, and there is something about her that makes it impossible for me not to trust her completely.  Why should I not?  She has never shown any hint of ulterior motives, of a hidden agenda, or of being anything other than that which she appears to be.  I cannot but believe without any hesitation that she will fight for the things she loves and cares for.  Unlike others I have given my heart to, Lilya will stand firm by her words.  She will not throw my heart away.  She, I know, will never give up at the slightest difficulty.  Many underestimate her, it is true, but I have seen the strength within her.  Beauty and strength.  It is an intoxicating combination!


Did I not say to her that I would kill to protect her?  Have I not thought to myself, prayed to God, to Her, for Lilya to remain pure and uncorrupted.  Perhaps, then, God, and My Eternal Empress, have made this happen so that I can protect her properly, as only a lover could.  I only hope that my own Darkness does not harm her.  I shall do everything I can to keep safe from even that.  I shall pray for the strength to do so.

Of course, once our relationship becomes public knowledge - and there is no reason to keep it hidden, for there is no shame in this - I do wonder what shall be said.  I must confess I look forward to Aldrith's reaction, for at least I can answer, in all honesty, that I have done the best I can to bring relations between a family of Sarum and a family of Tash-Murkon closer together.

Poor Ioannis, I feel he may be a little disappointed.  Though, from what Lilya tells me of his reputation, I cannot imagine he will wallow in any sort of sorrow for long.  Perhaps he was genuine, and the tales of all his different women are exaggerated.  I hope it shall not affect our working relationship.


I see there are reports of a Triglavian Invasion in Nakri!  As reluctant as I am to tear myself away from Lilya's bed, I must defend my home, my family.  Oh, but she is so very beautiful!
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