You're where the Wild Things are...

An in-character blog set in the universe of EVE Online. These are the private diary entries of Lady Ekaterina Mariya deSilvestris, a minor Amarrian Noble and Capsuleer. Other existing characters within EVE will be referred to throughout, though any opinions and views expressed are those of this character. These entries may touch on or directly address mature themes such as violence, sexuality, race and ethnicity, and mental health. As noted, any views are those of the character.

Before we begin, I feel it important to say a few words on the subject of mental health. Ekaterina, or Ekat as many call her, is something of a troubled soul. This aspect of her character is a personal choice I have made, for very personal reasons. Although EVE is a game in which the players can immerse themselves to a greater or lesser degree as they wish, mental health is a very real issue for many people. Those two simple words cover a myriad different issues and concerns that affect people directly or indirectly every day all, over the world.

If you find yourself affected by any issues touched upon in these posts, or if you face your own troubles, please know that there are people out there you can turn to; doctors, friends, family - there is ALWAYS someone. If you are an EVE player, then Broadcast 4 Reps chat is available, staffed by wonderfully kind and good-hearted volunteers. If you know of someone who has mental health issues, then please just let them know you are there. It doesn't have to be anything big, just a smile, a cup of tea, a quick phone call about last night's game - just a little thing to show they aren't forgotten.

You Never Fly Alone.
12-08-YC121

The dig site is most impressive, and is full of promise.  Almost as impressive and full of promise as Ioannis.  I have never really had much dealing with Gallente, or at least few that did not involve exchanging shots, but it seems that Ioannis most certainly lives up to their reputation of being unafraid to express their feelings!  He is an interesting mix of contradictions - shy, modest, and yet quite happy to tell me that he has an irresistible desire for me, and wants to love me!

Perhaps kissing him was the wrong thing to do, I do not know.  My head feels so confused.  He is a very alluring man, but I still hurt from Constantin.  By strange coincidence Ioannis was a lover of Melisma, and he all but confirmed that which in my heart I knew - that Melisma was the one who seduced Constantin away from me.  I think I shall not sleep well tonight, at least not without some help.  Already I can feel the anger and pain rising inside me.

The contradictions with Ioannis do not cease there.  His words are not those one would expect to hear at what is but only a second meeting, but perhaps the people of his culture are not as reserved as we Amarr.  Perhaps!?!  Of course they are not!  I have heard the stories of how passionate they are with their emotions, how quickly and deeply they will throw themselves into their feelings.  Yet, am I that much different?  However, what sort of scout would I be if I did not prepare myself with as much knowledge as possible?  Ioannis is a name that appears again and again on the IGS, and rarely, it seems, in a favourable light.  I can see no definitive proof that he has stood directly against the Empire, though he has certainly expressed his opposition to our institutions, and has had more than a few affiliations with our enemies, such as those Tribal bandits Electus Matari.

What then, is his purpose here, in Sarum Prime?  He speaks of seeking to uncover knowledge, and help preserve heritage and history, the stated aim of his enterprise, Sapphire Interstellar Capital Holdings and Humanism, and the documents he showed me stating he has permission from the Sarum Family all seem to be in order; but is there something more?  He did mention Lord Vestokhri, who may even bring slaves to aid in the work.  That may prove to be quite revealing.

Why, I wonder, did he invite me to assist him, and how did he hear of me exactly?  My archaeological experience has never much be focused on such ancient sites as this, nor is my work at all famous or well known.  I shall have to see if I can coax an answer from him over dinner tonight.  He seems more than happy to speak openly with me, but whether that is from a genuine feeling of attraction, or an attempt to merely flatter me, I am not yet sure.

I can feel a headache coming upon me.  I should try to sleep.  The Esfand shall help ensure I have more pleasant dreams than usual, especially knowing the painful, hurtful truth about Constantin and Melisma.  My head is so full of different thoughts and emotions, and now there is a small, but not pleasant, feeling whenever I think, mostly unbidden, of Ioannis.
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