You're where the Wild Things are...

An in-character blog set in the universe of EVE Online. These are the private diary entries of Lady Ekaterina Mariya deSilvestris, a minor Amarrian Noble and Capsuleer. Other existing characters within EVE will be referred to throughout, though any opinions and views expressed are those of this character. These entries may touch on or directly address mature themes such as violence, sexuality, race and ethnicity, and mental health. As noted, any views are those of the character.

Before we begin, I feel it important to say a few words on the subject of mental health. Ekaterina, or Ekat as many call her, is something of a troubled soul. This aspect of her character is a personal choice I have made, for very personal reasons. Although EVE is a game in which the players can immerse themselves to a greater or lesser degree as they wish, mental health is a very real issue for many people. Those two simple words cover a myriad different issues and concerns that affect people directly or indirectly every day all, over the world.

If you find yourself affected by any issues touched upon in these posts, or if you face your own troubles, please know that there are people out there you can turn to; doctors, friends, family - there is ALWAYS someone. If you are an EVE player, then Broadcast 4 Reps chat is available, staffed by wonderfully kind and good-hearted volunteers. If you know of someone who has mental health issues, then please just let them know you are there. It doesn't have to be anything big, just a smile, a cup of tea, a quick phone call about last night's game - just a little thing to show they aren't forgotten.

You Never Fly Alone.
09-11-YC121

In a short amount of time I shall begin my Pilgrimage, my journey to the most holy and significant sites of our Beloved Motherland.  I have made all necessary preparations; a new clone, with no implants, so that I am as physically pure as I can be; sacred ablutions, prayers, and ritual blessings to make me so spiritually.  Once I have written this small entry, I shall join Father Mikhail as he blesses Dido, so that even the vessel that shall carry me on my travels is righteous in the Sight of God.  I have not completely finalised the itinerary, indeed, I am tempted to let God guide my direction, but I have some time to think more on it, whilst my hangar-crew make the final preparations for departure.

This Pilgrimage is so much more than a requirement to be elevated to Paladin, it is is necessity for myself.  With every place I visit I shall move closer and closer to God, and as I do so I shall reflect upon what it means to be one of God's Chosen People. I shall focus my mind upon my Holy Duties: to bring The Light to New Eden, and to destroy the Darkness.  Yet it is not only the Darkness in the Universe I must face, the multitudinous enemies that besiege Our Divine Empire, it is also the Darkness within.  For it is still there, quieted perhaps, but no less present.

 I shall miss Lilya, but this journey I must make alone.  She will understand, I know.  She shall be within my mind and my heart as I travel, and God shall see this.  I have such questions regarding her, regarding my feelings for her.  I know I shall find answers.

 Ishta has been given a task to undertake in my absence.  I cannot know if she will meet with success, but if anyone can, it is her.  She, also, shall be in my prayers to God during my journey.  I sense that her fate is bound closely with that of my family.  I should never have believe it but a few months ago, but I find myself wishing that the name deSilvestris was on her papers, rather than Pitoojee.  That, as with all else, is in God's Hands.

I shall think of Sirna, also.  How could I not?

 May God, and The Eternal Empress, Bless and Guide my Journey.
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