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I think I have changed my opinion of Vess.  At first I felt rather vindicated when she changed her tone to one far more humble, but I believe she is genuinely appreciative of my gesture regarding repatriating the Minmatar fallen.  Genuine I am, for I see no reason to maltreat those who gave their lives so bravely.  I have contacted local Minmatar Commanders to arrange the transfer of the deceased, and will speak with Amarr Commanders in the area to ensure it goes smoothly.

Of course, unsurprisingly, the Tribal propaganda machine has lurched into action, spreading stories about Amarrian atrocities.  All unverified, all unsourced.  Hearsay, at best.  What is most infuriating is that such things most likely have happened.  Carried out by undisciplined, dishonourable troops.  If the Minmatar actually only presented some solid evidence for these outrageous acts, we could investigate and bring the perpetrators to justice.  Yet all they do is spin wild, lurid stories, and all that will do in turn is incite the Minmatar population to violence against anyone they believe to be a colloborator, or else encourage young, raw, inexperienced men and women - no more than girls and boys, in fact - to take up vigilante arms against seasoned, trained Amarr combat personnel.  Imagine if some village youths picked up weapons against our Household Naval Infantry!  Those youngsters would be slaughtered!  It is irresponsible.  Wars should be fought by soldiers, not by civilians.

They would never dare publish what happened in East Hav - the truth that an Amarrian actually helped Minmatar civilians.

Something is not right and I cannot fathom what it is.  I joined a patrol in the warzone yesterday, and although I managed to destroy an enemy pod - which felt as exhilirating as it always does - I was a fraction too slow to destroy his ship.  Then we managed to net another, but when I reached the scene, instead of locking onto the target, I jumped through the Gate!  I even missed the defence of our station later because my pod connections were malfunctioning.  It is exceptionally frustrating.  Is it that I do not like to be parted from Lilya?  I barely saw her before I had to return to duty, and though she tries to be close as often as she can, I am often so busy we may as well be systems away from one another.  Or is there something darker at work?  I cannot seem to settle my thoughts.

Perhaps I should distract myself and undertake more patrols.  Assuming I can get my connections to remain stable.  I shall have my hangar crew investigate and effect any repairs that may be required.